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Let me show you my insecurity…

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I’ve always had great self-esteem. Oh, I’ve had my moments where its faded for awhile, but on a whole I’m a confident person. Sure of what I want. Sure of who I am. Sure of where I am going.

But I have to admit. I’ve lately had my moments of insecurity.

Suddenly, it seems everywhere I look, I see people doing the same things I do. Maybe that has to do with the fact that I am immersing myself more and more into the blogging, page design and photography worlds. So of COURSE I am going to find more people doing the same thing.

But sometimes, it gets a bit unnerving. Especially when sometimes it feels like everyone is doing it a little bit better than I am. Or they have more resources to get the job done better. It gets a little disheartening at times.

Oh, I’m not letting it stop me from striving towards my goals and dreams. More often than not, I use that to make me work even harder! But once in awhile… I find myself going, “What am I doing? How can I really compete?” And I wallow for awhile in my insecurity.

But every day, I open my blog to write another post. Some days, life gets in the way and it doesn’t get done. But on a whole, I do strive to do it every day. I keep my photo of the day project going, letting it push me towards working harder and getting better. I look at photos and want to figure out, “How’d they do that?”  The same for page design. I don’t let my insecurities hold me back; I let them push me forward. Let them make me work a little harder to over come them.

What are you insecure about? Do you let it hold you back? What can you do to turn that negative into a positive?

faith, motivational, optimism

A year of beginnings

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Going into this year, I said time and time again how the new year had to be better than the last. Moving would be forcing us to make big changes, and it would also give us a new place from which to leap into the year.

Here we are, 12 days into the new year, and as I talk to friends (or as I skim Facebook) I find that a strong majority of my friends and family are also using 2011 for new beginnings.

I know of at least four weddings this year, if not five. I know of several pregnancies. Friends are also packing up and making big moves. Still others are looking for new jobs. Some have even opted to go back to school.

Everywhere I look, I see everyone with something new… even if its simply a new life motto. It’s almost as if we all took 2010 to try to “fix” things, while 2011 is instead a reboot for us all.

As I look around me, I still see so very many problems in my country and in the world. But I’ve always believed big change happens after individual changes are made. It only takes a spark to start a fire, after all.

And perhaps, instead of trying to fix problems, or instead of looking at the big picture and how “dismal” things are (because, c’mon, last year we looked at the big picture a LOT with government deficits, etc.), if we all just take the initiative to fix things individually and internally, we can start to see some changes to the big picture. Even a forest grows one tree at a time, after all.

I don’t know! Maybe my optimistic self is starting to bounce back these days, but I am really feeling hopeful for this year. Not just for myself, but for all of my friends and family. For everyone who is making changes, no matter how big or how small. Dream your dreams. Make your new goals. Make those crazy changes you’ve been afraid to make. You’ll never know what kind of positive change it could be until you try.