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I miss writing

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I feel so bad that I’ve just let this blog go in a lot of ways lately. I’ve gone from writing every day to writing a couple days a week. And mostly? I’m just too tired by the end of the day to do it. It’s not a lack of things to write about, its literally just a lack of energy to use the brain power to write.

Tax season is over in two weeks. Which means its time to buckle down and knock it out. Most my mental and emotional energy is going towards that these days. It doesn’t even feel like Easter is this weekend. I have to keep reminding myself that its days away, and that I need to figure out what I am going to make to take to my brother’s house and if I am going to put some eggs together for the Easter Egg Hunt.

Last weekend, I got to see my husband! I really want to write a post just about it here, but I suspect my post for Road Widows will have to be the one that stands. It was so wonderful to see him, and we got to explore a small town and instantly be charmed by it.

Aggie Muster is 17 days away, and I feel like I am bullying people to come to it. But I am passionate about it, and I really want Aggies to be there! But I fear attendance is going to let me down, and if that happens I end up wondering if I’m going to have it in me to organize it again next year. (Oh I know I’ll do it. I figure I’ll do it until either I just absolutely can’t or until someone else demands the chance to do it.)

Stressing about bad weather across the country wears on me as well. Tornadoes break my heart, so even when I’m not affected directly by them, I worry and feel defeated by those strong winds.

All these things have left me just drained, which doesn’t exactly let the writing juices flow. I miss writing regularly! I hope that come May, perhaps that’ll happen. Until then, please have patience with me! I’m still here. I still care. I’m just brain mushy!

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Uncertainty

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If you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans.

You can make plans, but life is full of uncertainties. You can try to be in control, but in reality… you aren’t.

There is one thing that is a given about being married to a musician, and that is uncertainty in general. You never know when there will be a show added, making planning big things difficult. For example, this will more than likely be the first Easter my husband and I won’t spend together due to a show added on Good Friday. I felt it was certain we’d spend the day together, and instead we probably won’t. It is what is is. You also never know when a show will be canceled, making it impossible to know for sure how much money you’ll have coming in by the end of the month.

Spring is upon us, and as such the weather is growing volatile. I’m sitting here loading and reloading weather reports for tomorrow. What are the chances of tornadoes around Nashville? Will my house still be there in the evening? Will my truck be covered in hail dents? All the predictions in the world are good to have, but at the end of the day… we can’t know what is going to happen until it does.

You apply for a job. You work hard on a project. You give everything your all. However, you never really know how any of it will be received. Once again, uncertainty reigns.

What matters is how you handle the uncertainty. I don’t LIKE it, but its a fact of life. I like to prepare myself for every possibility, so I am as ready as I can be for whatever happens. Sometimes you CAN’T prepare. Sometimes life throws you a curve ball that you couldn’t have seen coming. And its in those moments you have to take it a minute at a time, and just do your best to handle it with strength and grace.

NaBloPoMo March 1st writing prompt: How do you feel about uncertainty? Is it exciting or scary? [here]