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I need a vacation

I hate it when people say, “I need a vacation.” Mostly because I’ve found the people saying it are the same ones who JUST went on vacation.

But. I need a vacation.

I’m spent. I’m overwhelmed, and I’m spent right now. I have three projects on my to do list that have been there almost two months now, both of which should have theoretically been able to be done within a couple days. But instead, due to this or that or this or that have sat unfinished for way too long. These are projects I can get paid for, but with every passing day I don’t feel right about charging what I normally would due to my lack (or at least slow progress) of productivity.

I’m frustrated and overwhelmed. And just when I think I’m finally getting ahead (and I dare to take a day to clean my house and go on a date with my husband) the next day new things get dropped into my lap and I just want to cry. Like today.

I need a vacation.

I need a reset. I need to step away from everything for a few days and then come back to it fresh. Maybe then I won’t feel so overwhelmed and that alone won’t hold me back from finishing. It sounds good in theory at least.

Then again, maybe I’ll get a burst of productivity and inspiration in a couple days and all this whining will be for naught. But for now, I just want to vent a little bit. That alone makes me feel a little better.

It WILL all get done. Maybe not at the pace I prefer, but I won’t give up and it will get done. This I know for sure.

But I still need a vacation.

 Oregon - July 2012

Under the weather

137: SickiesYou know what stinks? That moment you realize, “I’m getting sick.” And then you spend the next few hours or days in denial, all while doing what you can to avoid it happening.

Yeah, that was me a few days ago. I fell asleep on the couch for about 15 minutes, and when I woke up my head felt it was twice its size. It was THAT moment. So, I started my battle with my old faithful of sinus rinses and apple cider vinegar tonic. Musicinex and a couple doses of Sudafed PE. I also take Zyrtek and Flonase daily.

A couple days of teetering between okay and not-okay, I woke up with a full-fledged cold. And the crappiest part of it?

My husband was on the road. And Mom is 800+ miles away. I was on my own.

What is it about being sick that just makes you want to be doted on? To want to just wrap up in a blanket, sit on the couch, eat popsicles and watch mindless TV. To want to have someone else make you supper, and bring you a cold glass of water when you just don’t want to get up off the couch.

Oh, its not the first time I’ve been on my own while under the weather. It won’t be the last time. But it still makes me WANT to turn into a whiny little kid. Even at 30.

Now the funny thing about a cold is that there’s really nothing you can do about it, and within that, I had no real good reason to call out of work. (Trust me, though, if I’d felt I was contagious I’d have called out. ) And, you know what? I am glad I had to work. A hot shower, flat ironed hair, make-up and just being up and among people made me feel better. It made me forget about how big my head felt. It motivated me to keep going.

I followed a work evening with a day of sleep, water, Muscinex, Vitamin C, Sudafed and sinus rinses. Mostly sleep. And as a result, I am running at about 90% now. I alternated sleep with house work today (and hubby is home, so he went to the grocery store for me and instead of popsicles brought me a six-pack of a new seasonal beer — I love that man!), and I think I should be running at full speed again tomorrow (or darn close!).

We’re going into Fall, though, which usually means sicky time for me. I’ll try to keep the whining to a minimum. Try.