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Looking for focus

img_20161201_014159I’ve done a lot of writing this year… I’ve just failed to complete most of it. My blog’s post feed has had many drafts never see the light of day, most eventually just getting deleted.

The reason for that is that I feel like I have been lacking focus on all of those posts. My mind running around in twenty different directions, wanting to write about every little nuance of a train of thought… only to get derailed and frustrated. Scared of the comments I’ll get.

2016 has been an interesting year, full of ups, downs and plenty of straight stretches of just keep on, keepin’ on. And as we enter the last month of the year, I find myself needing to focus on so many little tasks I’ve let just ride through the year. My to do list of things I’d like to get done before Christmas is a little overwhelming.

But, my mom told me about how atĀ mass this last weekend, the emphasis was on it being the season of Advent. We are in a time of preparation. And a great way for me to prepare for Christmas is to get all these things off my back that I’ve just procrastinated handling. All these things that are subconsciously holding me back from enjoying the season.

One thing that’s weighed on my mind, though, is how I’ve neglected this blog. My goal for December is to post EVERY day in preparation for Christmas. Some days it may only be a photo or two. Other days, maybe I’ll take my chances and be more candid than normal on my thoughts about the world. Who knows. But I want to write. I need to write.

Last night, I watched the special movieĀ Christmas of Many Colors and I bawled though the end of it. I couldn’t begin to tell you how badly I needed to see that. I was literally doing the ugly crying thing at the end. Pretty sure that had my husband been home, I’d have scared him.

Understand, being married to a man who is working with the touring industry — be in when he’s playing music or driving bus — December (and January, and February, and often March) is a scary time. The touring just stops, and so does our bread and butter. But somehow, someway, over the last 10 years we’ve pulled through. Sometimes its been just relying on friends and family to help us. Other times it comes out of the blue, and we can make our mortgage and put food on our table. Yet the start of every December, this stress creeps up. How are we going to do this again?

We will get through this winter once again. One way or another it’ll happen. We always do. Some people would call it luck. Others would just call it good networking. I choose to call it faith that He will provide. And I will be ready to accept any gift he gives us to get us through the winter.

Lighting the last candle

For the last few weekends, I’ve lit a virtual Advent wreath here on my blog. Week one represented Hope. Week two represented Peace. Week three represented Joy. This final weekend represents Love.

Lighting the last candle means Christmas is less than a week away. Or, in this case, its exactly a week away. I’m ready for it. I wish I were MORE ready, meaning I wish I’d have been able to do more leading up to the holiday to get into the spirit. I seem to be constantly falling in and out of the spirit, depending on the day. This last week I was sick, and most definitely not focused on Christmas through that! But here in this moment, as I write this, I am back in the mood. I am ready for it. Excited for it. Looking forward to it.

So here I light this last candle, virtually atleast.

Week 5: LOVE

Its hard to talk about love, because love is something you feel. Its something you experience. Its both a verb and a noun. It’s considered the greatest of all things…

Love life. Love each other. Live your life with love in your heart. Enter this season with love, for it is out of love that this most blessed of holidays exists. As you feel yourself filled with stress of to do lists, shopping, decorating and travel, remember to love one another. For it is out of love that everyone will experience the wonder of Christmas to its fullest.

And now abide faith, hope, and love, these three, but the greatest is love.
1 Corinthians 13:13