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Forgiveness

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I noticed a couple days ago on BlogHer that it was “Global Forgiveness Day.”

According to the post:

This tradition of forgiveness began in 1994 with a simple downtown banner in Victoria, British Columbia proclaiming July 7th as “National Forgiveness Day.” As the tradition took hold and began to spread, it became evident that the act of forgiveness need not be confined to one nation. One planet? Yes, that seemed more fitting….so the tradition was renamed “Global Forgiveness Day” and here we are. (Post by Heather Clisby)

Since the day I read that post, I’ve chewed on the topic in moments of silence. Is there forgiveness I’ve failed to give? I’ll be honest, there is. Interestingly, though, most of the “grudges” I’ve held are ones for wrongs done to people I love and care about. I get angry for others faster than angry for myself. Things I could hold a grudge about with me personally, I tend to be able to forgive… though I rarely forget, choosing instead to learn from the past.

In forgiving others, a forgotten forgiveness that one must give, is forgiveness to self.

For example, I have a very loud conscience, and any time to do something wrong — to others or just in general — it screams at me. It nags at me. And I find myself needing to forgive myself and admit I am not perfect, either. Mistakes happen, and until I forgive myself, how can I ask or expect others to forgive me? I must grant forgiveness and learn from the event.

Granting forgiveness frees your soul. It lightens your load… especially when that forgiveness includes forgiveness of self along with forgiveness of others. Life is too short to hold a grudge and be tied to a negative time or event in your life.

I’ll work on it more with those “grudges” I still hold.  And perhaps someone out there who reads this will find forgiveness in their heart as well.

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The (over) thinker

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imageI can definitely be accused of thinking too much. Sometimes, I think that’s why I get a major case of writer’s block for this blog… such is the case today.

Oh, don’t get me wrong, I am no where near as bad of an over-thinker as I once was. I don’t live in my head as much as I did even just five years ago. I’m less introverted as I was then (although I think I’d still consider myself more introvert than extrovert… but that’s a post for another day.)

That being said, I often find myself with so many ideas that I am left with no idea what to write. So, I spend hours reading other blogs, looking for inspiration. Hoping something will silence the thoughts in my head and make them focus down into one solid blog post.

That didn’t happen today.

No, my biggest problem today is that the ideas I have for posts are good ideas! I just have to write them very carefully with a solid respect for my audience. I’m not opposed to being “controversial” — but I AM opposed to knowingly offending. Or, worse yet, getting someone, who is just an innocent bystander, in trouble.

So, instead, I vent my feelings and thoughts without censorship in a personal journal. Hoping that “getting it out” will help me take a more neutral approach to the issue at hand. It’s helped me focus my energy and organize my thoughts countless times. I often wonder if other bloggers use this technique as well, or am I just making more work for myself?

No matter what, it didn’t help, either.

I’m still sitting here, stewing over thoughts I don’t dare yet let see the light of day until I can correctly organize them and present them in the proper fashion. Perhaps I am still over thinking them. I am sure of it, in fact. However, if I were to write without thought and care, I’d be less likely to be able to sleep peacefully than I am if I continue stewing over things!

So here I am writing a blog post to tell you I don’t have a blog post today… and why.

Here’s hoping something strikes my fancy soon, or I am able to finally organize the train-wreck of thoughts going on in my mind. I’ll take either one at this point!