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1234About a month ago, maybe two months at this point, I started noticing the recurrence of “1234” around me. Mostly the fact that I had to crazy habit of looking at the clock at either 12:34 or 1:23. Or more recently 2:34. All. The. Time.

It actually have gotten to the point in which if I am confronted with any variation of that number, I go, “Of course it is!”

So anyone who knows me well know that I am a big fan of Googling things. (Hey, I’ve already diagnosed myself with every disease known to man at some point.)  And here is what I found…

From ANGEL NUMBERS – Joanne Sacred Scribes:

Number 1 encourages you to step forward and start something new, different and life-changing.  Number 2 sets you on your course with balance, faith and ability, and number 3 sees expansion of concepts and life-themes, and expressing and communicating from your authentic self.  Number 4 encourages stability working steadily towards goals.  Angel Number 1234 can be seen as a number of progression and/or steps along a journey or life path.

From Angel Therapy:

When you repeatedly see the number sequences 123 or 1234, it’s a sign to simplify your life. The perfect sequence of 1, followed by 2, then 3, then 4, signals that it’s time for you to make your life more predictable and simpler.

Finally from Spiritual Path:

1234, 234, 345 – If you are repeatedly seeing ascending number sequences such as 1234, this is a sign from your Spirit Guides that these are progressive thoughts. You will see this sign when thinking about an area of your life that you are concerned about and want to change, or when thinking about a particular subject. Seeing this number sequence immediately after these thoughts is a sign that your thoughts are progressive; your life will progress by following these thoughts and you will have your Spirit Guides support in its pursuit.

So long story short, I get the feeling my guardian angels are telling me its time to make changes and move forward. But where do I go? What do I do?

Perhaps this is a good time to do an update on my life and then where I see things going from here.

I’ve written about our plans and dreams to open a bar. That plan and dream is just as strong as ever. In fact, this whole number thing started not long after we got our business plan shipped off to investors. It also happened not long after we found out the building we’d had our sights set on was no longer an option. From a business sense, I totally understood. From a personal sense, its a bit overwhelming to know something you’ve spent a year working on, and are thousands of dollars in debt for, is on hold and you have no true direction at the moment.

I’ve chosen to accept this as a sign that building wasn’t meant to be, but the urge is still there. The dream is ever alive, and it WILL happen. I just feel like I have a lot more to learn before we dive into such a big endeavor with both feet. We need to be in a better place. We need to take steps to BE in that better place.

Snapchat-1558766510991349381So meanwhile, my husband is back to driving tour bus full time. He’d gone back to playing music as his focus for a period of time, because, frankly, he is a musician. Period. We will forever be a musician. It’s part of his DNA. I love that fact, and I’d have it no other way.

However, as I mentioned, thousands of dollars in debt. And while the music could pay our bills, it doesn’t dig us out of that debt. Thankfully, he’s found a permanent “seat” with a wonderful duet. They love him, and he loves the group. He even now has a brand new bus to drive. I think he’s pretty happy. In his heart, he’d obviously prefer to be playing music, but he’s absolutely found the best world he could be in driving.

As for me and that number sequence thing… I have so many directions I love and want to go! And somehow, three of them are really starting to come to light more again.

For one, I want to focus on writing. What do I want to write? I don’t know. But I’ve made up my mind I want to write and now I’m waiting for that spirit guide that has been throwing me numbers to give me some direction on that.

Until then, my love for photography is strong as ever. My 365 I’ve been doing on Instagram this year has been so much fun, but I’m missing quality time with my DSLR. This weekend, I get to embark on my first job as a second shooter for a wedding. This has been on my wish list of jobs for about four years, and it kind of came to me. I’m terrified. I’m excited. I’m thankful. I’ll let you know how it goes.

Snapchat-8421524050292611585-editedFinally, I’m a bartender. I can’t turn it off. I’m not the best bartender to ever sling a drink, but I think I’m pretty good. And I enjoy it. I’ve just been hired on a sub-bartender and tour desk attendant at my favorite brewery in Nashville. Another thing I’ve thought about for years applying to do… and trust me I got the ribbing from others about that. “You are finally here!” I love it. This brewery for some reason has a part of my heart, and I’m excited to officially be on staff representing them.

Meanwhile in all of this, I’ve officially been named President of the local alumni chapter, and I’m still active with the golf tournament benefiting CASA. I stay busy, and I love that. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Simplify my life (as Angel Therapy above)? No, I don’t think that’s the answer. I think the answer is to just be more proactive, and move forward. Something I am very excited to be doing.

Making it Happen Monday: Success, like life, is what you make of it

Yesterday evening, my Facebook timeline lit up with several friends posting a link to a blog, “I Look Down On Young Women With Husbands and Kids and I’m Not Sorry.” (I feel a little weird linking to the post because it need not any more attention than its already gotten.)  The debates that were raised by everyone commenting on the post were interesting, but the general consensus was that everyone has to do what works best for them.

Ironically, this lit up my Facebook the same night as the Grammy Awards… an award ceremony that focuses more on critical acclaim than on fan-based voting.

Case in point:

Now, if you follow me on Twitter you know I have absolutely zero love for Florida-George Line. Critically they are the epitome of what I believe is wrong in country music today. Yeah, I said it. BUT, I gotta give it to them on one front: they’re selling records and somehow have been able to keep a song in the top 10 pretty much non-stop for the last year. (I’m not going to go look up the exact stat on that. I don’t care enough to know.) That’s a big deal. And I am not going to take that away from them. Even if I question their fans’ tastes.

THEY measure success in record sales and how many fans come to a show. And there is NOTHING wrong with that. In fact, in many ways that is the exact definition of success in the music industry.

Similarly, though, other artists measure success by critical acclaim. They put their heart and soul on every song on every album and they don’t give (much) care as to if its radio-friendly or if it sells a million records. It would be nice if it did, sure. But that’s not their goal. Their goal is much more, well, deep and personal.

Success is what YOU make it.

So I turn back to Ms. Glass, the writer of that blog I grudgingly linked to earlier. SHE measures success based on a corporate ladder of sorts. And that’s okay! I’ll be honest, when I was in college, I thought that was how I would measure my success as well. I felt success equaled a high powered job with six digit salary.

Then, well, life happened.

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I somewhere along the way re-evaluated that measurement of success. I looked at friends around me who had taken the more “typical” path of job, marriage and family and went, “I seriously admire that.” That is THEIR path of success, and I think that is amazing and beautiful. I absolutely love following their escapades with their children and admire their tenacity as Moms and Dads. Personally, I think being a parent — a good parent — is the hardest and absolutely MOST important job in this world. (And by the way, Ms. Glass, stating that, “We have baby showers and wedding parties as if it’s a huge accomplishment and cause for celebration to be able to get knocked up or find someone to walk down the aisle with. These aren’t accomplishments, they are actually super easy tasks, literally anyone can do them.” clearly shows you do not know or care about anyone who has had the heartache of not being able to have children. Perhaps its time you step out of your perfect little world bubble.)

I, myself, have found myself walking the line between the two. Working to build my own photography business while also managing a home. (Because lets face it, keep up a house is a full-time job… and Ms. Glass implying otherwise is asinine.) Hopefully starting a family at some point. I am doing what is right for ME.

We should never — never — look down our noses at other’s successes, and by extension their life, because they are doing what is right for them. Frankly, to make this world run smoothly we need all of us doing our “jobs.” We do need corporate-focused people to make sure companies run smoothly and stay in operation, allowing everyone from the CEO to the janitor to keep their jobs. We need Moms and Dad to raise our youth to some day take over those jobs. We should be raising each other up in all ways, not turning our noses up and smacking each other down.

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