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Can’t hide

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I used to keep a daily journal on the LiveJournal site. It still exists (the journal) since I purchased a Permanent Account years ago. I still update it periodically, but on a whole I’m too busy living life to really write about it daily. I wish I did still update regularly, though, since its fun to go back and read where I was on a given day. Plus, I made a lot of really good friends on the LJ site, and I’d like to keep in touch better.

The problem with writing sometimes is that you lose a person’s emotional reactions as they tell a story. You can’t see a smile or hear a laugh. You can’t see the tears rolling down their cheeks as they recount something that happened. So to compensate, I would try to augment my writing with smilies or “LOL” or things like *wink* to help bring a story to life. (I probably should have relied more on my writing style than that, but its a journal… I could/can do what I want.) I wanted to try to make it more like I was speaking the story than writing it.

I can’t hide my emotions very well. If I am happy, you’ll see it in my eyes or in a big smile. I love to smile! If I am upset, I might not come out with it, but you’ll know as I withdraw. My husband can always tell when I am upset, because I get quiet. Even when we chat via IM, he can just tell in how I type when my mood is down.

I’m non-confrontational. If I am upset with a person, or I just want to be left alone, you’ll see it in how I interact with you. I’ll be stand-off-ish. I might refuse to look you in the eye. I don’t WANT to show how I feel, but I can’t hide it either. I refuse to be fake, and even if I force a smile it’ll never reach my eyes.

Be it in text or in person, I find it hard not to convey my emotions. Perhaps that’s not always best, but at least I am true to  myself.

 

NaBloPoMo October 2012Post based on today’s NaBloPoMo prompt:
Are you good at hiding your feelings or is your face an open book?

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Uncertainty

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If you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans.

You can make plans, but life is full of uncertainties. You can try to be in control, but in reality… you aren’t.

There is one thing that is a given about being married to a musician, and that is uncertainty in general. You never know when there will be a show added, making planning big things difficult. For example, this will more than likely be the first Easter my husband and I won’t spend together due to a show added on Good Friday. I felt it was certain we’d spend the day together, and instead we probably won’t. It is what is is. You also never know when a show will be canceled, making it impossible to know for sure how much money you’ll have coming in by the end of the month.

Spring is upon us, and as such the weather is growing volatile. I’m sitting here loading and reloading weather reports for tomorrow. What are the chances of tornadoes around Nashville? Will my house still be there in the evening? Will my truck be covered in hail dents? All the predictions in the world are good to have, but at the end of the day… we can’t know what is going to happen until it does.

You apply for a job. You work hard on a project. You give everything your all. However, you never really know how any of it will be received. Once again, uncertainty reigns.

What matters is how you handle the uncertainty. I don’t LIKE it, but its a fact of life. I like to prepare myself for every possibility, so I am as ready as I can be for whatever happens. Sometimes you CAN’T prepare. Sometimes life throws you a curve ball that you couldn’t have seen coming. And its in those moments you have to take it a minute at a time, and just do your best to handle it with strength and grace.

NaBloPoMo March 1st writing prompt: How do you feel about uncertainty? Is it exciting or scary? [here]